Messages from Rachel Corrie before her murder


March 16, 2003

   "We are now in a period of grieving and still finding out the details behind
   the death of Rachel in the Gaza Strip.
   We have raised all our children to appreciate the beauty of the global
   community and family and are proud that Rachel was able to live her
   convictions.  Rachel was filled with love and a sense of duty to her fellow
   man, wherever they lived.  And, she gave her life trying to protect those
   that are unable to protect themselves.
   Rachel wrote to us from the Gaza Strip and we would like to release to
   the media her experience in her own words at this time.

   Thank you.
   Craig and Cindy Corrie, parents of Rachel Corrie

   --
   Excerpts from an e-mail from Rachel on February 7, 2003.

   I have been in Palestine for two weeks and one hour now, and I still have
   very few words to describe what I see.  It is most difficult for me to think
   about what's going on here when I sit down to write back to the United
   States--something about the virtual portal into luxury.  I don't know if
   many of the children here have ever existed without tank-shell holes in
   their walls and the towers of an occupying army surveying them
   constantly from the near horizons.  I think, although I'm not entirely sure,
   that even the smallest of these children understand that life is not like
   this everywhere.  An eight-year-old was shot and killed by an Israeli tank
   two days before I got here, and many of the children murmur his name to
   me, ôAliö--or point at the posters of him on the walls.  The children also
   love to get me to practice my limited Arabic by asking me "Kaif Sharon?"
   "Kaif Bush?" and they laugh when I say "Bush Majnoon" "Sharon
   Majnoon" back in my limited Arabic.  (How is Sharon?  How is Bush?
   Bush is crazy.  Sharon is crazy.)  Of course this isn't quite what I
   believe, and some of the adults who have the English correct me: Bush
   mish Majnoon... Bush is a businessman.  Today I tried to learn to say
   "Bush is a tool", but I don't think it translated quite right.  But anyway,
   there are eight-year-olds here much more aware of the workings of the
   global power structure than I was just a few years ago--at least regarding
   Israel.

   Nevertheless, I think about the fact that no amount of reading,
   attendance at conferences, documentary viewing and word of mouth
   could have prepared me for the reality of the situation here.  You just
   can't imagine it unless you see it, and even then you are always well
   aware that your experience is not at all the reality: what with the
   difficulties the Israeli Army would face if they shot an unarmed US
   citizen, and with the fact that I have money to buy water when the army
   destroys wells, and, of course, the fact that I have the option of leaving.
   Nobody in my family has been shot, driving in their car, by a rocket
   launcher from a tower at the end of a major street in my hometown.  I
   have a home.  I am allowed to go see the ocean.  Ostensibly it is still
   quite difficult for me to be held for months or years on end without a trial
   (this because I am a white US citizen, as opposed to so many others).
   When I leave for school or work I can be relatively certain that there will
   not be a heavily armed soldier waiting half way between Mud Bay and
   downtown Olympia at a checkpointùa soldier with the power to decide
   whether I can go about my business, and whether I can get home again
   when I'm done.  So, if I feel outrage at arriving and entering briefly and
   incompletely into the world in which these children exist, I wonder
   conversely about how it would be for them to arrive in my world.

   They know that children in the United States don't usually have their
   parents shot and they know they sometimes get to see the ocean.  But
   once you have seen the ocean and lived in a silent place, where water is
   taken for granted and not stolen in the night by bulldozers, and once you
   have spent an evening when you havenÆt wondered if the walls of your
   home might suddenly fall inward waking you from your sleep, and once
   youÆve met people who have never lost anyone-- once you have
   experienced the reality of a world that isn't surrounded by murderous
   towers, tanks, armed "settlements" and now a giant metal wall, I wonder
   if you can forgive the world for all the years of your childhood spent
   existing--just existing--in resistance to the constant stranglehold of the
   worldÆs fourth largest military--backed by the worldÆs only superpower--in
   itÆs attempt to erase you from your home.  That is something I wonder
   about these children.  I wonder what would happen if they really knew.

   As an afterthought to all this rambling, I am in Rafah, a city of about
   140,000 people, approximately 60 percent of whom are refugees--many
   of whom are twice or three times refugees.  Rafah existed prior to 1948,
   but most of the people here are themselves or are descendants of people
   who were relocated here from their homes in historic Palestine--now
   Israel.  Rafah was split in half when the Sinai returned to Egypt.
   Currently, the Israeli army is building a fourteen-meter-high wall between
   Rafah in Palestine and the border, carving a no-mans land from the
   houses along the border.  Six hundred and two homes have been
   completely bulldozed according to the Rafah Popular Refugee
   Committee.  The number of homes that have been partially destroyed is
   greater.

   Today as I walked on top of the rubble where homes once stood,
   Egyptian soldiers called to me from the other side of the border, "Go!
   Go!" because a tank was coming.  Followed by waving and "what's your
   name?".  There is something disturbing about this friendly curiosity.  It
   reminded me of how much, to some degree, we are all kids curious
   about other kids: Egyptian kids shouting at strange women wandering
   into the path of tanks.  Palestinian kids shot from the tanks when they
   peak out from behind walls to see what's going on.  International kids
   standing in front of tanks with banners.  Israeli kids in the tanks
   anonymously, occasionally shouting-- and also occasionally waving--
   many forced to be here, many just aggressive, shooting into the houses
   as we wander away.

   In addition to the constant presence of tanks along the border and in the
   western region between Rafah and settlements along the coast, there are
   more IDF towers here than I can count--along the horizon,at the end of
   streets.  Some just army green metal.  Others these strange spiral
   staircases draped in some kind of netting to make the activity within
   anonymous.  Some hidden,just beneath the horizon of buildings.  A new
   one went up the other day in the time it took us to do laundry and to
   cross town twice to hang banners.  Despite the fact that some of the
   areas nearest the border are the original Rafah with families who have
   lived on this land for at least a century, only the 1948 camps in the
   center of the city are Palestinian controlled areas under Oslo.  But as far
   as I can tell, there are few if any places that are not within the sights of
   some tower or another.  Certainly there is no place invulnerable to
   apache helicopters or to the cameras of invisible drones we hear buzzing
   over the city for hours at a time.

   I've been having trouble accessing news about the outside world here, but
   I hear an escalation of war on Iraq is inevitable.  There is a great deal of
   concern here about the "reoccupation of Gaza."  Gaza is reoccupied
   every day to various extents, but I think the fear is that the tanks will
   enter all the streets and remain here, instead of entering some of the
   streets and then withdrawing after some hours or days to observe and
   shoot from the edges of the communities.  If people aren't already
   thinking about the consequences of this war for the people of the entire
   region then I hope they will start.

   I also hope you'll come here.  We've been wavering between five and six
   internationals.  The neighborhoods that have asked us for some form of
   presence are Yibna, Tel El Sultan, Hi Salam, Brazil, Block J, Zorob, and
   Block O.  There is also need for constant night-time presence at a well
   on the outskirts of Rafah  since the Israeli army destroyed the two
   largest wells.  According to the municipal water office the wells
   destroyed last week provided half of RafahÆs water supply. Many of the
   communities have requested internationals to be present at night to
   attempt to shield houses from further demolition.  After about ten p.m. it
   is very difficult to move at night because the Israeli army treats anyone in
   the streets as resistance and shoots at them.  So clearly we are too few.

   I continue to believe that my home, Olympia, could gain a lot and offer a
   lot by deciding to make a commitment to Rafah in the form of a sister-
   community relationship.  Some teachers and children's groups have
   expressed interest in e-mail exchanges, but this is only the tip of the
   iceberg of solidarity work that might be done.  Many people want their
   voices to be heard, and I think we need to use some of our privilege as
   internationals to get those voices heard directly in the US, rather than
   through the filter of well-meaning internationals such as myself.  I am just
   beginning to learn, from what I expect to be a very intense tutelage,
   about the ability of people to organize against all odds, and to resist
   against all odds.